I've Been Thinking

I've been thinking a lot lately.

A little over two years ago, as I have mentioned before, I decided to remove any and all negative relationships from my life and have since stuck to that principle. At times, it causes discord amongst the people that I have chosen to keep/remove which only reminds me that I am thankful to have severed that tie in the first place.

It does not mean that I am a selfish, terrible person. It means that I have chosen to surround myself with those that are supportive, loving and uplifting. We all complain. We all have our bad days, (I write about mine!) but when we begin to measure our lives in the number of daily disappointments ...its time to make a change. When your world revolves around gossip, misplaced anger and unkind words it's time to face whatever demons you have that you are attempting to pass onto others. It is no one's responsibility to make you "happy" or "feel good." You have to find that within yourself and not depend on your spouse, your friends or even family to make you happy.

Relationships will come and go. Friendships will run their course and a marriage between two individuals that are not truly happy with themselves will succumb to failure. Even "family" members will disappoint you, hurt you and leave you out to dry.

I am truly blessed to be happy with who I am and what I have accomplished thus far with my life. I began writing this blog wondering "What Next?" I now know that it's alright to have no clue as to what to expect next.

By surrounding myself with positive influences, and taking time for myself I have found a new sense of well being. And it's got me thinking.....

It doesn't matter what's next or what now. All that matters is to find inner happiness and strength and spread it to others.

It is the only way to get through those times when all you can do is ask "What now?"