For the past week, I have experienced pain in 18/18 of the common trigger points associated with fibromyalgia. Ultimately, I hurt ALL over and it's been worsening each and every day. Where exactly does it hurt??? Let me show you...
Each and every red spot on the diagram is inflamed right now. It hurts to walk, sit, lie down, breathe, eat, talk, shower...you get the picture.
I was unable to go to work today and will be missing again to go to the doctor tomorrow. I am hoping for some sort of steroid which will help with the inflammation. I will be swollen from the steroids, but it beats being in pain. I haven't taken them in quite a while, but they tend to help with the major times of inflammation. I will also have to ask for some sort of back up pain reliever for times when the pain gets to be too much to function. It is few and far between the times that I actually take anything for pain. I hate medicine. I hate relying on medicine and I hate thinking of the long term effects of taking the medication that I do.
Fortunately, I have a fabulous primary care physician that is able to find the perfect combination of medication for me by working with my rheumatologist. I would much rather be at work with the little ones than dealing with this though.
I try not to complain about the pain, take medicine that isn't necessary or refrain from strenuous activity. Occasionally,despite all attempts to forget, I am reminded that I do in fact have this disease, and it brings tears to my eyes to cope with that reality. There are so many women and men that deal with this painful disease day in and day out. Tonight, my prayers are with each and every one of them. I ask that God holds us all in his arms gently and lovingly. If the pain must persist for now, I pray that we will be relieved not temporarily, but instead eternally when we join our God in Heaven. Until then, I wear purple for each of us and send gentle hugs your way. Goodnight all.
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