Checking In

It has been six days since my doctor visit and combination of new meds. It has been two whole days without an anxiety attack or need to take the anxiety medicine. I am starting to feel a little more like myself again and less like a crazy person. For this, I am grateful.

I was able to enjoy my time with the bf this weekend and have a few good laughs. We even attended a church service together that we both enjoyed. It was nice to be around people again and to have something to look forward to.

Next weekend, I am hosting a girls night at my apt which should be a lot of fun. I have invited many, many people and have had most RSVP. It will be a mexican pot luck party complete with margaritas and daquiris which should be delicious. I think as long as I keep going through the motions and planning things, I will have the incentive to push forward. I hope so at least. If anything, I will get to see some friends I haven't seen in quite a while. One of my sorority sisters is even coming from Humble and staying the night which is super exciting. She was my "grandbig" in our sorority family (my big sis' big sis) and I miss her so much. Now, if only more of my distant sorority sisters could make it! One is even in Vienna right now believe it or not.

I have decided to forgo the half marathon and instead do the 5k Race for the Cure. I know I can manage 3.3 miles regardless of how I am feeling. I've been invited to do another 5k in November as well. I truly enjoy running and have managed to run every day for the past 3 days. It is such a freeing feeling to have the wind against you and to just simply be outdoors. I forgot how amazing it feels to be outside.

Slowly, and surely I am getting back to me. I am not sure how I will do once I am completely off the Cymbalta and only on Paxil, but time will tell. For now, I am going to rest my tired body and get some sleep for my first day back at work. Feeling a little anxious about going back, but I know it's time for me to get back in the groove of things. I'd like nothing more than to take a personal leave of absence and stay home for another week or two, but I have responsibilities that need to be met. Goodnight for now, will post more tomorrow about first day back.